After 3 weeks of sorting, packing, donating, cleaning, moving, unpacking, more sorting, more donating, arranging, more cleaning and decorating - we are finally all settled in our new place!! And I love it!! It was hard work and so worth it! The kids are happy, I am happy and for the first time in a long time, my soul feels nourished everyday - this was so needed! I am grateful beyond words to be living in this little haven. The pool fountains run everyday from 5pm to 9pm and its amazing, I keep the front door open so I can hear them, its sounds like peace. Its so quite and still in the mornings, I sit on my porch and drink coffee and read before I start my day. It has taken almost 2 years to reclaim peace to my heart and to find myself again. I am seeing more than glimpses of who I really am. I see her in the mirror when I curl my hair. I hear her when I talk to my kids and friends. I feel her living and doing what God has laid on her heart. I smile more, I have more patience and I have so much understanding. I have walked through some yucky waters and it was so difficult coming out of it and seeing and feeling how awful it was. I see how important it is to give ourselves permission to heal and take the time we need. I think back to other circumstances and situations I went through and how I never fully healed from them - there wasn't understanding that I needed to. I am fully seeing how vital it is to be loved well. Its difficult to grow and be nourished if we aren't loved well, at all ages. I am focusing on mothering this way - loving them well and really seeing what they need, finding the mother in me that they need me to be, that He made me to be.