I took a walk at lunch today and I thought of you. I felt the warm sun on my face and I thought of you and smiled. I took a little bit longer walking back and I thought of you some more.
I thought about how very much you have changed my life and your father's and your brother's too. I thought about all the other lives you have touched and how you have changed them. I marveled at how you bless people with such an ease that you aren't even aware of. I thought about your shyness and how you prefer not being the center of attention. I thought about the day you were born and how delighted I was when they told me "it’s a girl." My labor with you was so very easy, you came out with barely a push – already blessing me beyond comprehension. I smiled and shook my head at that because I realized the many times I have needed to push you and encourage you to grow and stretch yourself; how I have pushed you to find the Lord and to find your calling and gift. I wonder if I've pushed too hard and if you've only needed a "little" push. You have always been determined and sure of what you wanted and liked. I thought about how you have taught me to trust God deeper and to let things be imperfect. I thought about your love for babies and your strong fashion sense that started at age 3! I thought about how we butted heads over outfits and brushing your hair. I thought about the times I yelled too much and wasn’t patient. I fully remember all the times you were (and still are) quick to forgive me and extend grace. I thought about how creative and generous you are, how selective you are with those you let "in" to your heart. I thought about how you have navigated the dynamics of friendship in high school and how often you take the high road. I thought of all the fun little things we do and how very much I like you, what a good friend you are to me at the same time as being a wonderful daughter. I thought about how very deeply I love you, forever and ever no matter what. I thought,
I hope Sydney knows what a wonderful gift from God she is!